I can't turn off my x-ray vision & i almost feel guilty for seeing through so much of life & those in mine.I've been more sensitive than usual & i'm not sure whether i want it to go away, or if i enjoy feeling more sometimes, good or bad. It somehow feels more like me.
I've had time to work on my own art, its making me feel.. patient & that is something i don't get to experience often.. or ever. I am loving every second of it, especially the hope chest that im painting, i feel almost selfish doing this for myself but im a little too excited to care.
I've been listening to the same few albums pretty consistently & i'm not getting sick of them. This is a rare beauty in life.
My dreads have been behaving pretty poorly, but i've decided to lay down the law the past couple days & it seems to be helping a little. haha, some people look at me in an almost sympathetic way, as if to say " aw, im sorry you did that to you hair, you must have instantly regretted it" but i love them so please, spare your tears i am okay.
I have been reading Nicholas Sparks' Dear John book.. its already so bittersweet. I'm falling in love along with them. I just hope the movie doesn't piss me off now... although i'm sure it will i'm excited to see it.
I've been working on a memory box for a little girl who lost her dad this year, i want to make this so special for her that i feel like i should never be finished. The design is going to look like the print on the beautiful dress she wore to his funeral. I don't know her or her family, i was asked to do this by someone who does.. & i really feel undeserving but so honored to contribute to this little lady growing up & remembering who her father was & how much love they shared. I can't stop praying for her while i'm working on this.. its simultaneously breaking & warming my heart.
I just made a caramel frappuccino with this crazy montel blender we got & i couldn't be happier with the result.
Today is a Sarah Mclachlan & painting day.
I gotta say i'm feeling pretty good about that.
I am so blessed & i hate when i forget that.
